Feeling Blue

If you're looking for a peppy, upbeat post this isn't going to be one. This is my stinkin' blog and I'll whine if I want to!

Today started pretty good. I got up and made some yummy potato bite things for my English class which were a major hit, even though I didn't think they were that good. I got dressed and felt pretty good about my outfit, hair and make-up, which is rare for me. Then, my super amazing visiting teachers came over with their adorable baby girls and we had a nice chat. THEN! I checked my grades and it all went downhill from there. I got C's in both of my science classes. I was kind of expecting that with the one, but the other caught me completely off guard. I cried a lot. I really don't think I will be able to get into any of the Dental Hygiene programs I was looking at with two C's out of four required science classes and a couple of the programs don't accept do-over grades. It broke my heart. I worked so hard this semester for nothing. Then, Steven and I had reserved the theater out our apartments and invited some people to come over to watch a movie with us. I wasn't really feeling up to it anymore after learning about my grades, but figured it might be nice to have some friends over, watch a fun movie and take my mind off of things. No one came. I had a lot of fun still with Steven, but I was really sad that no one wanted to come. I don't make fiends very well, but I keep putting myself out there hoping with practice I'll get better at the friend making thing, but then I just end up feeling bummed and wish I hadn't tried.

I don't care if you think I'm throwing a pity party because I KNOW I am and I warned you not to read it if you were looking for something uplifting and happy.

I'm about to start crying again now, so I'm just going to go to bed and end this stupid day. Even venting didn't help. ARGH!